TiredTribe

I have taken the last few months to really work on my meditation skills in the hopes that I would be able to clear my mind long enough to experience total silence. I took time off from social media and even stopped watching or reading the news for a while in order to clear out the head clutter. To say this has been a struggle is an understatement.  I spent countless hours and days fighting off the thoughts that kept creeping up inside my head. Fighting off the outside noises like the kids running around, the dog barking and cars passing by until I finally threw in the towel. I kept thinking to myself, this is impossible and only people who live alone can achieve this total silence so many speak of. It wasn't until recently while going through my morning ritual of listening to Alan Watts that I realized I was going about it the wrong way. I had spent so much time trying to block out noises that I missed the whole point of meditating. I kept focusing on silence instead of focusing ...

It is only right that I start off this blog by properly introducing myself. I am a wife, full time career lady and mom of two very special kids. My family and my kids are my number one priority but I also enjoy having a career. This is the reason why I struggle on a daily basis with balancing everything. Some days my career/job has taken top priority and on most other days, it is my family who occupies that top spot. It is a never ending battle of who will take that number one place sometimes and the guilt is never too far behind on those days. I try my best to be everything to everyone and to accomplish as much as possible on a daily basis but I don’t always accomplish that and I learned that it’s perfectly fine to end the day with things on my to do list that never got crossed off. I don’t have to be perfect. I don’t have to do it all. I just have to do my best for my family while maintaining my sanity at work. Having children with special needs will add a whole other level of c...